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March 16th, 2013

Reading my past tumblr posts, I found the period where I felt like we were soon going to be over and the date says 2011. I thought it must have been some fight that I couldn’t remember so I brushed it aside but then I found this post which I clearly remember posting when you sent me that ‘break-up’ email and I thought “That’s not right”

So I dug up the email and it was dated 2011.

It has been a year and a half since you dumped me but I still can’t forget you.

This is not right. It fucking feels like 6 months ago when you left and not 18 months ago.

Time is passing faster than I expected but I am still not over you. At least I think I’m not over you because I still cry at times.

This is really not right.

Edit : // The moment I hit ‘publish’, Bleeding Love by Leona Lewis starts to play on itunes radio channel All New Jammin 101 under Top 40/pop.


December 16th, 2012

Guess it became a habit, remembering special occasions.
Too bad we weren’t meant to be.
Happy Birthday.

Losing him was blue like I’d never known
Missing him was dark grey all alone
Forgetting him was like trying to know somebody you’ve never met
But loving him was red
Oh red burning red

Remembering him comes in flashbacks and echoes
Tell myself it’s time now, gotta let go
But moving on from him is impossible
When I still see it all in my head

-Red by Talyor Swift


May 5th, 2011

Yes. This post is for the Bee*mee Derby again! ^ o ^

So, topic is about the best gift I’ve ever received and why.

Hmm. I have received many gifts and all of them were awesome! Okay, some not so….to my liking but it still turned out great =)

But I guess the best gift I’ve received is a….actually, as long the gift is from someone you love, it is the best gift. I have received lots of things from the ones I love and I really can’t pick one.

But but, I do have a favorite gift and that is the ring my boyfriend gave me.

I told him I lost mine on my trip to china and whined a little about it and he agreed to buy me a new one. Okay, so maybe the card that came along with it played a part ^ v ^

Ring <3

May 2nd, 2011


Being adventurous is not one of my traits.

Sure, I’ve been to different countries, seen different cultures and even saw homeless people just lying on the streets but that was hardly adventurous.

I’ve been on a viking ship before in the amusement park and from that day onwards, I hated rides. I didn’t fancy the feeling that felt like a plane going through some turbulence.

But I supposed if you look at the definition of adventurous in the dictionary, the part that says “Willing to take risks or to try out new methods, ideas, or experiences”, I guess I did try out something new.

Online dating. Okay, not really. I didn’t meet him on a dating site. Met him on a gaia forum.

Adventurous enough?


So, while most of my friends get hugs, kisses, dates and the whole nice package, I get…words. Soundless words. Unless you count the sound of the keyboard when you type.

But I still get presents every once in a while through snail mail. A little slow on the delivery side but I think it is better. It is the small little feeling you get when you receive an unexpected present in your mailbox.

It gets tough at times but it actually makes you understand a person more because all you can do is to talk. No hugs, no movie or dinner dates, no long walk in parks, no taking pictures together and stuff.

So, you basically have to talk about your day, who pissed you off, who annoyed you, or which new girl moved in next door and things like that.

And sometimes, he doesn’t have to see your face to know that you are upset or if you had a hard day. All he needs is your replies.

And from that, I learnt that you don’t have to meet someone in order to love that person.

And and, why I wrote this post was because of a challenge on QBee. It is called “The Great Bee*mee Derby” and yes, I get points for writing this post but that doesn’t mean I just wrote it for the sake of writing it. I actually did some reflections while typing this post up. (I know right, its like I don’t even know who I am anymore)

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